Anyone out there who is just ended a relationship? Two months ago my "ex" threw me out. In June my sister committed suicide. She lived for a week on life-support systems, comatose, before she died. I had been seeing a therapist for depression before that happened. I had an appointment with my counselor on my return from the funeral and he informed me that my diagnosis was "bipolar II". I was having a hard time dealing with all of this. My boyfriend and I were going through rough times then. I was out of work, short-term, with a broken foot. My world just crashed. I attempted suicide by taking a bottle of pain pills, but my body finally reacted and sent me to the toilet (actually...crawled) to throw up. There must be angels out there, because I took enough pills to fell a horse and at the time couldn't find my sleeping pills. Although I don't remember it, I called my youngest daughter who then picked me up and took me to the emergency room. My boyfriend knew I had taken the pills, he caught me in the middle of it. He asked if I wanted him to call 911 and I said "NO!", so he didn't. What would have been the point of 911? I did NOT want to be around any longer. After he had eaten the meal I had cooked he went to bed in the spare bedroom after telling me several times what a "stupid bitch" I was. After spending the next two days in the hospital I was shipped to a mental facility for eval. Nothing happened while I was there, eavl or otherwise, and they released me two days later, to my daughter. My boyfriend came to see me after I had been in the mental facility for a day and acted as though nothing had happened. A week later, after phone calls back and forth with him, he called to tell me I needed more help than he could give me...that I was a worthless person. He threw me out of the house. My oldest daughter, In Germany, brought me to Germany to live with her and her husband. That wasn't a solution. She expected to totally control my life. I have just gotten back from Germany and am living with my son, but am having a hard time. I know that it takes time to get past all this, but feel like it's overwhelming at times. I can't afford a counselor until I get a new job...searching during this time. Anyone out there with ways to cope or similar experiences?